DAILY CATHOLIC     FRI-SAT-SUN     July 3-5, 1998     vol. 9, no. 129

SYMPHONY OF SUFFERING

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    INTRODUCTION
          With the messages for the world having been concluded three years ago, slowly the public "Hidden Flower of the Immaculate Heart" has been able to return to the fullness of being Cyndi Cain, wife and mother (roles she never abandoned even for a moment during the public years). However, after much prayer and discernment, she feels strongly that there is much God wishes her to share, for He continually teaches us in our hearts and with the grace of the Holy Spirit, we are to share, to learn, to grow and to be there for one another, as He is always there for us.

          In each weekend issue she hopes to find the time in a busy schedule of caring for a sick child, schooling another son, and the regular work of keeping up a home not to mention helping with the ministry, to write a few lines in sharing with all the experiences and lessons learned in her own introspection. Cyndi has chosen to call her few words, humble and poor in the face of the Almighty, "SYMPHONY OF SUFFERING", for He has placed these words in her heart. To suffer: How all hate the thought, and how, when one is a mother who is faced with the onset of an illness for which the cure may be years away we feel our hearts break in many places. Yet, God hears a beautiful melody here. The angels hear it, too, and so do the saints. The melody reaches to the Heavens and joins with the unending chorus of all the hosts of Heaven praising God. It is Cyndi's sincerest hope that perhaps, together with the reader, we can take our sufferings, which are different yet similar, and place them into this great hymn of praise to the Creator, our Lord, God and Savior, Jesus Christ, and learn to make beautiful music unto the Lord. Below is her eighth stanza.

All must be in tune in order to effectively perform God's proper concerto
part two

          During these eight years of this ministry some people have been shocked to discover we are human, and will be fully human until we die. They were shocked because they discovered that we are not the "perfect" family. We are not without sin, not without distraction, not without the problems that beset most people today. Moreover, those who were shocked turned against us, persecuted us, and never realized that it was God they were striking out against, and themselves. We were just the handy-dandy instruments in the way of their own argument with God over His Will vs. their own will.

          I sometimes think that that same struggle of God's Will vs. man's will is at the heart of why there is so much apathy within the Marian movement today. I know that is the reason for this crisis at MIR-A-CALL Center. Is it that we, as God's Children are, no longer like to think of Him as a Loving, Caring, and Just Father? Are we, therefore, callused to His Will, and are we, like so many youth today, locked in a battle of wills, contending for the place of total control?

          Ah, control! Think about that. We like to think we're in control of the situations of our life, when in reality we control nothing. God's Will is manifest, and perfect and we, His children, have only to obey. But instead we rebel, and when we rebel, not only is the symphony off-key and painful to the ears, but the result is that we wind up hurting our own relationship with God, and then we hurt others by taking them away from God as well.

          What would happen to the Symphony of Suffering if, instead of being divided, we were all of one mind and heart through the grace of the Holy Spirit? Now, I'm not saying that there wouldn't be problems, wouldn't be illness, disease, suffering or sorrow. There would most assuredly be those things, because we are not in Heaven. However, in this unity of mind and heart through the grace of the Holy Spirit, we would feel the power of God's Love ever so vibrantly in our lives, and we would have so much more love to give to our neighbors. If we cannot share the joys and the sorrows, then what good is the symphony?

          What music reaches God's ears is ours to choose, and while that may seem a bit far-fetched, I ask you if it really is? Are we not, by our very being, contributing to the Symphony of Suffering, for no man is exempt from suffering. Are we not, by our very existence, contributing to the Symphony that glorifies God at every moment?

          Yet, we have free will. We can choose, and often times we do choose, to be disobedient children of God. We go our own way, and tell God to tend to His own business but not to bother us.

          When we behave this way, we're telling the entire population of the earth that we don't care about them, either. You see, only when we're in perfect harmony with God's Will, striving to do His Will in loving, simple, humble obedience, are we then able to reach out and listen to, help and love our neighbors, wherever they may be. We were meant to help one another.

          Now, as Michael and I continue to take life just one second, one minute at a time, our Hope and Trust is in God, for He has the answers. We know that we do not. Our job is obedience to Him in all things. That obedience means accepting, even if we do not understand the why, that our son is now "damaged" goods as far as society is concerned. We accept, although we do not understand, that the ministry He entrusted to us in 1990 may very well disappear because so few cared enough to give of themselves to help it.

          Both Mike and I do want to acknowledge those who have responded and contributed from their heart. Every little bit keeps us going another day, able to reach more souls throughout this world now called cyberspace. Over the years our ministry has changed in function, but never has it changed in focus or direction. But with the growing costs, I am very serious that we are in dire straits without the financial help of those who care. No matter what ministry it might be, if it is for advancing God's Will through His Holy Church, than it is a ministry which comes under the responsibility of all. Ministries that come from God, ministries that are given back to God, never cease but exist within His Infinite Plan. But to those to whom He gave the ministry---not just those to whom He instructed, but those He wished to be instructed - will have to explain to Him why they chose to lose such a gift, such a treasure, such a grace that He wished to give.

          Last week I spoke of Father's Day. The greatest gifts that we had to give to 'Dad' were, first and foremost, the Love of God, and secondly, our love for him as father, as husband, as provider, protector, problem-solver, the man of many hats with the face that still takes my breath away.

          We did not have 'presents' with pretty wrapping, nor cards with lovely messages tucked into scented envelopes. There was no Sunday brunch to take him to, no "outing" for him that day. For us, it was a day given to God, for it is the Sabbath above all else, and in caring, as best we were able, for our sons, particularly our oldest in his fragile condition, and simply loving one another with our deeds of charity, more than anything else.

          What, I wonder, did you find out about yourself, your dad, your relationship with God the Father on this past Father's Day. Did you add to the Symphony in a chord or melody that blended perfectly? I pray that was so. I pray that our own Symphony was found pleasing before the Throne of the Triune Divinity.

          For all of us, may we all work a bit harder in the weeks to come to make sure that our Symphony of Suffering is not off-key, but rather one octave closer to the Supreme Concert that we will hear when we, one day, meet our Heavenly Father, and the suffering will be joy forever!

Cyndi Cain


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