DAILY CATHOLIC     FRI-SAT-SUN     August 7-9, 1998     vol. 9, no. 154

SYMPHONY OF SUFFERING

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    INTRODUCTION
          With the messages for the world having been concluded three years ago, slowly the public "Hidden Flower of the Immaculate Heart" has been able to return to the fullness of being Cyndi Cain, wife and mother (roles she never abandoned even for a moment during the public years). However, after much prayer and discernment, she feels strongly that there is much God wishes her to share, for He continually teaches us in our hearts and with the grace of the Holy Spirit, we are to share, to learn, to grow and to be there for one another, as He is always there for us.

          In each weekend issue she hopes to find the time in a busy schedule of caring for a sick child, schooling another son, and the regular work of keeping up a home not to mention helping with the ministry, to write a few lines in sharing with all the experiences and lessons learned in her own introspection. Cyndi has chosen to call her few words, humble and poor in the face of the Almighty, "SYMPHONY OF SUFFERING", for He has placed these words in her heart. To suffer: How all hate the thought, and how, when one is a mother who is faced with the onset of an illness for which the cure may be years away we feel our hearts break in many places. Yet, God hears a beautiful melody here. The angels hear it, too, and so do the saints. The melody reaches to the Heavens and joins with the unending chorus of all the hosts of Heaven praising God. It is Cyndi's sincerest hope that perhaps, together with the reader, we can take our sufferings, which are different yet similar, and place them into this great hymn of praise to the Creator, our Lord, God and Savior, Jesus Christ, and learn to make beautiful music unto the Lord. Below is her twelfth stanza.

Vanity is the cacaphony that sours the symphony

          "Vanities of vanities - everything is vanity."

          Thus was the reading on this past Sunday morning, and it struck me profoundly throughout Holy Mass and as my prayers continued afterward.

          Our symphony to God in this earthly life must always be attuned to His Most Perfect Will. If it is not, then we make discordant notes that screech and howl, and call the demon to our side, where he plays with our minds, our lives, and causes us profound anxiety, concern, worry and strife. The demon propels us into lives whereby we work ceaselessly, as was mentioned in last Sunday's Old Testament reading, and to what avail?

          We justify our ceaseless work, we rationalize it. We say, I have to pay my just debts. I have to clothe, educate, feed, and house my wife, my children. I have to have transportation to and from my work. I have to have some relaxation, and that takes money, so I have to work harder, longer hours. Maybe I even have to change jobs, joining a corporation or type of work that I do not want to do, but the money's good, and that's what I need.

          We buy lottery tickets, though the odds are profoundly against us, and we humanly hope that we're going to be the lucky one this time - because we really need the money so we can do what?

          Think about the words from last Sunday's reading, and apply them to your own life, and I have done since hearing them at early Mass, and pondering upon them.

          Yes, Sacred Scripture tells us that we are to earn our daily bread by the sweat of our brow, but nowhere in Sacred Scripture does it tell us that we are to drive ourselves away from God in the process. Rather, this labor of body and mind, to earn that which we are to have to sustain mortal life, must become a process that is simplified.

          We erroneously believe that in this present day and age, our lives are simplified, because we have technology that instantly cooks a meal for us, transportation that takes us miles in minutes, entertainment non-stop around the clock of every type and variety (if we have the money to pay for it), communication devices that link us to the other side of the world in seconds, and so forth. One whose symphony is connected to the Divine Will, to seeking and finding God in a very personal relationship, would thereby conclude that with such modern devices freeing up huge chunks of time for us each day, our churches would be filled for morning Mass daily, our chapels of Perpetual Adoration would never find an empty kneeler, and we would have precious hours to give to God in prayer, meditation and contemplation.

          Is this the case? There are, of course, a few dedicated souls who do take this time and give it to God in the proper manner. But for most of us, we choose, with a good coating of vanity, to take the extra time that our mother and fathers devoted to laboring in the house or yard, to run hither and yon doing errands, driving kids to one organized sport or group activity after another; we bring to our homes the work that should have limits set upon it, but we do it so that we can earn an extra buck, or climb the corporate ladder, so that the endless "things" with which we surround ourselves shall not be found wanting.

          Vanity!

          Sacred Scripture points that out very clearly. Why do we do these things, which do not propel us toward God, but rather away from him, making us ripe fodder for the evil one? Because we have lost our conscience. Because we no longer have our priorities straight.

          In this last week, as I have prayed over many things, struggling like everyone else to keep on the straight and narrow path, God has placed upon my heart a portion of the Holy Gospel in which Jesus sends His disciples and apostles out to preach.

          Jesus tells them they are to go with only the clothes on their back. They are not to carry an extra cloak, or an extra pair of sandals; they are not to carry food, but only a walking staff, and they are to go and evangelize in His name, for the sake of the Gospel.

          If Jesus were to tell us to go and evangelize (which He does each and every day) we would not hear these words. We'd pack up all of our belongings. We'd have more suitcases of "stuff" than you could cram into the trunk of a van, and we'd haul these things with us, and think that we were right in doing so. But this isn't what Jesus wanted of His disciples, and it's not what He wants from us.

          To make our symphony of suffering in this life one that compliments and completes the Eternal Symphony of Heaven, we have to take His words to heart and live them.

          All of the stuff with which we fill our life is vanity if it holds us down, holds us back from freeing our soul to fly to God and breathe celestial air. And we are held down, and held back, because we live in an affluent society that pushes us to have even more, to want more, and we'll go to any length to have it, because it's good and makes us feel good.

          Jesus told us in Sacred Scripture to set our sight upon Him, upon Heaven, for that is our goal. Anything or anyone that gets in the way of that goal, we must put aside. Are we doing that?

          If we were, then we would not be living in the End Times. We would not be living in a society so evil that it surpasses even Sodom and Gomorrah. We are so burdened by "things" and the ability to possess these "things" that we don't even realize that vanity fills us to the core. We work, thinking it pleases God, but perhaps we should all take this week to ask ourselves if our endless work does please Him?

          I'm not suggesting that we all quit our work, become hermits in the desert, or anything like that. Rather, I am suggesting as God has put on my heart, that in each of our lives there is a way to simplify things so that the time to be given to God shall be given. We can't evangelize if we don't belong fully to Him to begin with, and our efforts fall short of the mark and make discordant melody when we try.

          If our Symphony of Suffering is to be heard in Heaven, then we must take this week, each day, to see where we can cut back on our self-seeking, our vanity. If we do this with a sincere heart, the Holy Spirit will enlighten each one of us, and show us the error of our ways, and we can turn down that straight and narrow path that leads to our goal-God.

          I am going to spend this week thinking of "vanity" as I have never pondered it before, and I will pray that you will join with me. If we are free of "vanity" then the symphony becomes pleasing to God, and the Triumph of Mary's Immaculate Heart will be hastened.

Cyndi Cain


August 7-9, 1998       volume 9, no. 154
SYMPHONY OF SUFFERING

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